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1st. (12th). Tuesday. Cloudy and cold in early a.m. 36° to 52° F.
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Wrote answers to Nagami, Dr. Allen and Miss D.H. To Miss D. H. I said, in P.S. "May I be bold enough to ask you one-to me great-favor? It's this: When it shall please you to write me again, will you kindly omit the cold word 'Sir'? Of course, I ask this of you as a favor, to grant or not to grant which is at your own pleasure. Your last letter had this chilling word for the first time. May that be the last time of it!"
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To Dr. Allen, I said, "The popular prejudice aroused in America by the Chinese coolies-shame on China to send such ignorant rabble here!-has something, it seems to me, to do in the comparatively cold attitude of the Church toward China Mission. At least I have met with individuals whose manifest dislike of the Chinese fully justifies my statement."
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To Nagami. "Thanks for the extract (alluding to the extract he sent concerning the General Amnesty lately proclaimed in Corea) . I hope my father has been restored to liberty by this amnesty. But, as you know, the acts of a despotic government is always capricious. So I do not much trust in the sincerety of this amnesty."
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Everybody was busy today to April-fool somebody. Want to find out the origins of this custom.
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2nd. (13th). Wednesday. Cold and wet.
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This morning, in the Chapel, Secretary Williams got up and said "Mr. Chancellor, please anounce that a musical entertainment will be given in the West Side Dining Room next Thursday night" Everybody was struck dum with wonder, surprise, amazement and delight at this marvelous announcement: Musical entertaiment at the West Side Dining Room!! But everybody was soon undeceived: the Secretary mistook the West End Church for the West Side Dining Room. He quietly sat down amid universal laughter.
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3rd. (14th). Thursday. Rained hard all the morning. Cleared up late in p.m. Windy. Between 52° F, and 64° F.
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At 7:30 went to West End Church to hear the organ Recital. Enjoyed it. The ticket was given me by the kindhearted Miss Florence.
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4th. (15th). Friday. Cloudy and rather cold.
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Mr. Utley addressed the boys in the Chapel on the Mission work in Japan. With great reluctance I went down to hear him. I can easily count for this reluctance.
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1st. As a Corean national jealousy makes me reluctant to hear Japan praised.
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2nd. As and advocate of China Mission I feel reluctant to hear Japan Mission highly spoken of. What a wonder! I, who hated the Chinese in Corea, disliked the Chinese in China, I now feel so partial for China Mission! From this I get the following suggestions:
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1st. Passion and prejudice largely influence and guide hatred and love. And such love or hatred is subject to constant changes.
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2nd. Passion and prejudice often overrule reason and common sense. Reason says that the success of Japan Mission will have good effect on Corea Mission. I know this and I have always prayed for the prosperity of Japan Mission as a Christian and a Corean. But when prejudice gets the better of purer and wiser motives and views I feel jealous of the success of Japan.
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3rd. Such passions and prejudices are natural to me, nay to every man, to greater or less extent. The best way to deal with such passions and prejudices in not to drive them out by sheer force of self-accusation and rage but to reason and pray them out. To be tempted is not sin, but sin it is to yield.
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To return to Utley's talk. He said that the Japanese are brave, polite, peaceful, patriotic, progressive, and intellectual. Enmity itself can not deny these qualities to the Japanese. I liked Utley's talk and like him. He shall always have my prayers.
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5th. (16th). Saturday. A beautiful day.
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No lessons this morning. In the afternoon went out with Woodward to the quarries near the University. Rambled about here and there along the stream which winds its way murmuringly through the green field. The cottages are neat and picturesque. Should I come back here, say about 10 or 20 years hereafter what wonderful changes must have taken place in this part of the city. This ephemeral stream will then have been filled up. The cottages will then have been transformed into beautiful palaces. The West End Mission will then have been dignified into a stately Church. Nashville has great future; so has this West End part of the city.
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Utley talked again. About 118 questions of sundry importance were put to him. Out of this number Dr. Tillet asked 76. Utley said that the Japanese as a race is very weak and physically ruined people. He ascribed this fact to the insufficiency of clothing, the innutritive character of the food, early abandonment to vices, and consanguineous marriages as the chief causes. He is right.
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Had Mr. Mashall with us tonight. He kindly lent me25. Miss Muse received some cake from an old lady this afternoon, and treated some of the boys in the parlor of Miss Florence. A boy remarked that the did not expect to be in such a cosmopolitan company soon again: there were a Chinese, a Corean, a missionary from Japan and another from China. Had a delightful moonlight night.
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6th. (17th). Sunday. A clear and warm day.
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Attended the Easter service in the West End Church. Dr. Hoss preached a sermon on the resurrection of Christ. Slumbered half the time. Taught he S.S. class in the Pen. Dropped into the West End S.S. Room and found the Monthly Meeting of cheerful givers going on there. Watched the proceedings of the little mission band of small girls and boys. Joined the society as an honorary member.
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7th. (18th). Monday. Very warm. Between 86° and 90° F. on sunny side.
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8th. (19th). Tuesday. Warm. Beautiful morning.
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The Campus is well decked with all the finery that an early and profuse spring can spare: green, blue, red and white are the colors that make the whole ground look like a piece of embroidery. Mr. Sp. addressed the Hall boys on the need of messengers of the Gospel to foreign field. Warm and cloudy in the night.
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9th. (20th). Wednesday. Warm and fine morning, windy.
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This morning in Dr. Martin's recitation room I was so tickled by the funny manner of Jordan that I burst into laughter. The Dr. turned round and said to me, "Mr. Yun, if you can not behave like a gentleman in the class, you had better leave the room". I hope this reproof will have its desired wholesome effect on me. May it restrain me from carelessly and foolishly indulging in laughter. The Doctor was right and just. It is to be regreted however that many of my faults had to be corrected by bitter consequences.
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10th. (21st). Thursday. Cold between 44° and 50° F.
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11th. (22d). Friday. Pleasant, fine, windy.
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Nothing but pressing duties has obliged me to get up and work today-feel so very weak and worn out.
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12th. (23d). Saturday. Windy, pleasant.
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At two p.m. went to Amusement Hall to see the pictures there exhibited. Of course, I know too little about art to criticize any of the 250 or more pictures I have seen. But there was one which arrested my attention. I know not how. It was a representation of "Weary Worn". An old worn-out woman, seated on a rustic bench, was wrapt in meditation. Age, care and toil seemed to bow down her spirit. "Now," thought I, "if that woman has no religion to support her, how desolate she must be! However lighthearted and careless we may be in youth, but age and infirmities of age will someday make us also weary of the world. Let us then be wise and serve God in youth. so that He may guide us through life and support us in old age"
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In the night, after the classmeeting was over, with Bruce went to Dr. Hoss'. talked with Miss Oglie about an hour and came back.
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13th. (24th). Sunday. Warm but fair.
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Attended the S.S. and Church service as usual. Taught the S.S. class in the Pen.
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14th. (25th). Monday. Very warm.
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15th. (26th). Tuesday. Raining-in the night cold enough for fire.
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16th. (27th). Wednesday. Rained more or less all day.
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Felt little better. Fretted this morning because the review of 100 pages in Syst. Theology was so dry. After supper mimicked the manner of Jordan before several boys. I carried the joke too far. I would not wonder if Jordan is mad. I feel wretched with remorse that I have done so thoughtlessly. If God will forgive me this time, I shall not mimic Jordan any more before boys.
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17th. (28th). Thursday. Rained in the morning.
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Glad I was to find Jordan unoffended by my joke. His good humor toward me shall not spoil me.
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18th. (29th). Friday. Fair.
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19th. (1st of 3d moon). Saturday. Fair and warm.
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Spent the greater part of the day in translating an article on Miss Haygood's "Home and School" in Shanghai Shin Pao.
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20th (2d). Sunday. A beautiful day.
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Attended the West End S.S. and the service. Bishop Wilson preached. This morning Dr. Kirkiand said, in connection with the S.S. lesson, that like the Pharisee most Christians rather feast Christ-with fine churches, fine music etc.-than to love him with repentance and faith as the woman did.
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This morning I read a little girl's letter in the "Raleigh Advocate". It ran thus:
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I have a little money I made myself by doing little things for Mama; sometimes nursing little brother or running on errands for her. She would give me five or ten cents, and I have saved it up and now I have a dollar and 20 cents that I want to send to the heathen. I thought the best way to do it was to send it to you. I asked Mama to give me a stamp and envelope so I would not have to spend my money in that way. The money is not much but will help a little.
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Goldsboro N.C. Maggie Hall"
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A most sweet thing I have ever read of. I shall always pray for this sweet little Maggie.
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Felt so ill that I had to retire to bed soon after dinner. Awaked at about 8 p.m. and read Mac's History till 11.
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21st. (3d). Monday. Beautiful weather.
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This morning I wrote to little Maggie thus:
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"Sweet Miss Maggie: Your note to Aunt Mary concerning the money ($1.20) you sent her for the heathen touched my heart. Your example was to me an eloquent and inspiring sermon on self-denial and Christian love, 'The money is not much', as you have said. But He who fed a multitude with a few loaves can and does make much of little things
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"I may never have the happiness of seeing you for I live in a remotest part of the earth; but rest assured that you will always be remembered in the prayer of your truely
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The question what I may do this summer quite perplexed me this morning. Some suggest one plan and others another. But I am not decided what to do. I shall ask Dr. Hoss about it; but he is too busy to consider the matter for me-I fear.
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22nd. (4th). Tuesday. cloudy all day with little rain now and then.
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This morning I wrote to Dr. Hoss thus:
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"My dear Dr.: Another vacation of three months is drawing nigh. The question, how shall I spend the summer, confronts me. Last year, I applied to one or two gentlemen in the Pub. House for work. Fair and many were the promises but no work. By this I am not blaming anybody; for what the Pub. House wanted was a skillful hand and not a novice.
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"This failure, however, and the inconveniences I was put to thereby last year caution me to take more solid and practical measures for this summer. Dr. Cunningham told me that he would pay me if I would write some more articles for the S.S. Visitor. He was kind. But to sweat and travail over a short article of two columns for a whole week in order to get two dollars for it is a poor job. Of course the good Dr. could not realize-nor can anyone else realize who is a master of the language-what days of patient labor I have to spend to write what he might easily write in an hour
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"Again some suggest that I may, with profit, go about from Church to Church to make speeches. From this, which is all but in name, a begging expedition, my timid-I may give it a softer name-my reticent nature instinctively shrinks. Some Japanese have done so, it is urged, and necessity knows no timidity. But I prefer some honest work to idle talking. Besides Brother Wilson hurriedly informed me yesterday morning that you disapproved the scheme I mentioned. Am sure you would not disapprove anything without solid reasons, though I know not what the reasons are.
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"Well, then, how would you direct me? Can you get me some kind of work here or elsewhere that I may improve my vacation in?
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"Pardon me for this importunity. for this Brother Spencer is partly responsible; he has written me to go to you when I wanted advice."
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Then I asked him to give his answer in writing so that I might know his opinion more fully. In the P.S. I added:
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"Thanks for the intimation you made through Brother Wilson that you would help me next year if I needed. But what I am anxious about now is not so much for the next year as for this summer".
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A missionary to Brazil addressed the Hall boys at 7 p.m. He spoke very highly of the healthy climate and the beauty and wealth of the country. He said that the Brazilians may be, irrespective of races, divided into 3 classes-the priests, the educated class and the common people. That the corruption of the clergy is simply horrible and beyond description. That the educated, disgusted at the superstition and immorality of the Catholic priests, are generally hostile or indifferent to Christianity. That the Protestant missions and doing good work there. He concluded then with an appeal to the boys in behalf of Brazilian Mission.
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23rd. (5th). Wednesday. Cloudy but pleasant.
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This evening the Wesley Hall Miss. Society selected R.C. Dickson as its representative to a foreign field. About700 have already been subscribed by the Wesley Hallians and some of the Y.M.C.A. boys for the support of Mr. Dickson. Mark what pure Christianity does!
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24th. (6th). Thursday. Rained hard all the a.m. Cloudy, but pleasant p.m.
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Finished translation for Mr. McGavock.
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25th. (7th). Friday. Cloudy and damp. Rained a little in the afternoon.
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Felt very languid and gloomy this whole morning: weak health affects the mind so very much. Received a letter form Bell. Dr. Hoss said to me that he would make some arrangement for me within a week or so.
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26th. (8th). Saturday. Rained in the morning until 1 p.m. then stopped. The rest of the day cloudy.
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27th. (9th). Sunday. A fair but little cold day. A delightful evening.
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Attended the W.E. S.S. and the service. This morning Dr. Kirkland said to the S.S. Class, "Weeds and thistles are not bad in their place; but when they grow with wheat they are nuisance. So pleasures and riches are good in their place: but when they interfere with virtues, they are evils".
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Taught the Pen. S.S. class and came back as soon as the S.S. was over. From 4:30 took a most refreshing walk with Sessler Hoss and two of his cousins, Mary and Julia, both under 13 yrs. Mary is indeed a sweet and affectionate girl. Her sister shows a somewhat haughty nature. The pretty prattle of these sunbeams of humanity charmed me hugely. There is something in my nature that hunger and thirst after such sweet associations. My melancholiness would almost disappear if I could often have a refreshing occasion like this.
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Tonight in the Sunday mission Meeting, O.E. Brown announced his intention of going out a missionary to-would you believe it?-to China. I thought, if he were to go a missionary at all, he would go Japan. He may change his plan yet, thought. Where ever he may go, he will make a first class missionary. God bless him. Today I felt better than I had for a long time.
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The girls this evening hunted after 4-leaf clovers saying that the finder of these hard to find plants is lucky. Julia found four. A pretty superstition.
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28th. (10th). Monday. A fine day.
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Recitations as usual. Went to bed early.
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29th. (11th). Tuesday. A fine day.
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Recitations as usual. Tonight Mrs. And Professor Ashford gave a musical entertainment to the students in the West Side Dining Room. I enjoyed the entertainment.
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Had a delightful night.
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30th. (12th). Wednesday. A beautiful day.
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Felt bad. Recitations as usual. After dinner spent an hour or more in hunting for 4-leaf clovers. I found three. Some boys could not find even one.
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After supper, with Jordan sat among the trees near the croquet ground and talked about the the wonders of nature and the mysteries of life, present as well as future. Of those things philosophers know no more than we. I despise those who despise religion as if they knew everything.
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